You might not know it, but there has definitely been stress up in this house this...i don't know entire year thus far. We're hoping for changes soon BUT UNTIL THEN we at least got AC installed for the summer instead of a swamp cooler. That's a bright side, right? We've officially labeled myself as someone with anxiety. For the most part I keep it at bay (don't talk to Mr Smith), but life has it's way of shaking up our comfort zones from time to time.
I'm hoping our allergies die down some. I know that's a lot to ask for in Spring. And I need to make a new doc apt... I'm just not sure on timing. But I haven't started my period and am, therefore, concerned. I still want to bear children in the near future. I do not want cancer. I thought I had my thyroid issue all figured out BUT MAYBE we can just blame all this on that! Except I was fine 6 months post-partum and I take "them pills"consistently. I hate the unknown. take away a little of my control as well and CUE ANXIETY. I'm not just talking about my overall health, but that's an example.
Plus all these other people with cancer or a track record for hating all things vaccinations or chemicals or food lacking in nutrients and I feel like I'm swimming in a pool of hopelessness. HOW WILL WE EVER SURVIVE OR MAKE SENSE OF THE WORLD. or at least get my family to eat vegetables. We might not. Not until the end. What a glorious day when all things will be brought to remembrance. HOPEFULLY all my terrible words of a crazed mother will be repented of because I really would not like to have those haunt me for eternity. The point is people, I'm definitely in need of the love of my Savior, His Atonement & forgiveness. I need His hope, His strength & His perspective.
Cause sometimes my perspective sucks. hahahahaha. Ok, I'm teaching a lesson tomorrow at church on Faith. It's not ironic.
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