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HAVE MERCY - Dallin has been painfully needy the past two weeks. It got SO bad that I'm literally pushing him off my leg and letting him fall onto the couch or floor or whatever yelling "get the freak off me" because I've just had it. My only breaks are when he takes a bottle. MAYBE some of the moments are from bad mommy letting nap or meal time get away from me, but if I'm sitting down or standing up, SOMEONE is begging for me to touch them. And the other is probably crying because WORD whininess hit an all new max recently. Dallin has to be teething again, it's a long drawn out process.

OK...speaking of whine...there ya go. Uncle Rand visited which was AWESOME. It's like catching up on the past, present & future when you get together with family or friends who knew you from long ago. Sometimes the present gets ahead of me and it's just crazy to think how far we have come.

My mom got her long awaited job at Delta Airlines. That's new & exciting & promising. Cause SURELY this coming July will be my first & last attempt flying with multiple toddlers.

I had this whole other section about our success and the lack of, yeeetttt it wasn't saved. Google saves everything so I'm betting it was Mr Smith. I shouldn't raise the knife until I know for sure but...i'll try and remember it for later.

Recent things for Dallin: He has taken up pointing along with his grunts to communicate AND he has a new fetish with belly buttons. He has been more predictable with naps since he turned 1 so that's a plus. We mostly stick with one at 12 to make it easy, but sometimes he takes 2, 1-hr naps still. At 14 months he is 26 lbs. Lexi at 4 yrs is 35lbs. Perspective.



Mother's Day was sweet & simple. Dad prepared something other than nachos for the first time in a year. A neighbor was selling their bike trailer so I decided to take the plunge and I LOVE riding them around the area. I wish the seating was a little easier, but we have made it work. They love it - I'm just dreaming about that garage...




PS - I did start my period. I guess my body just needed a little extra time. Good thing I didn't have to waste a doctor visit with my paranoia! Although definitely not something to look forward to, I think it says something to appreciate our bodies functioning properly. Yay for womanhood! I'm still borderline underweight at 133lbs. Someone could study my genes if they're curious. I lost weight having children, how about that. I'm the new skinny fat (I should be fat, but I'm skinny). Go on haters.

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