Alexis has started a new phase of "I have a good idea" and "who is on my team?" She is about doing and creating whether it's throwing a party & baking a cake to a lot of story lines I don't follow. Not too long ago we were having arguments of "you need to listen to me and I listen to you" which involved me explaining that listening does not equal doing and well, if I don't do everything she says then why does it need to work the other way around? Any way, we're getting better with our emotions and trusting that parents are here to help teach us. And I'm really trying to be better at teaching the most important concepts and not getting too caught up on too high expectations for a 3-year-old. She recently started saying "But you still love me, right mom?" and I have no idea where that little gem of a phrase developed, but yes my love, I'll always love you no matter how many messes you make. That phrase came soon after a couple "I hate you" fits which seemed to pop out of nowhere; I was pretty alarmed she put those words together. Pretty quickly she will be hugging me and pulling that cute little smile over on me with something completely endearing off those chapped lips, something like "you're the best mom ever." Seriously - where do they learn these phrases?! And that's life with a 3 year old who is basically 4 who is basically 16. She is grown y'all. Skinny legs, but she still has her baby cheeks. It's a good thing she still loves all the loving she can get. These photos are my favorite...
I love change. I love variety. I love mixing things up just because I can. It's helpful, but it's kind of a double edged sword. I'm terrible at consistency, even though Clifton Strengthfinder told me that was my #5 strength (I think they meant something closer to wanting things fair & equitable which isn't wrong). I not only move furniture in & out of my life, or make sure we don't eat the same thing too often... but I love that I can give my kids a flexible education. God knew this is something I would love & has allowed for it even when it comes with significant sacrifices (as many good things do). This has been a beautiful way to grow me over the last 4 years, and I definitely missed it, but I also started to doubt ever doing it again, which felt odd. I found myself questioning why I wanted to take the harder course. I had a little break with just E & M at home, but now B is back too, so I'm giving up some me time (I was never good at it any ...
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