Well one more thing off the list… it's exhausting to have two kiddos cooperate and have me, the photographer, have everything ready to go. What happened was baby wasn't ready at first. So I had to feed him. And then Lexi thought it was over before it began. So when she didn't want to look at the camera, she didn't. It's hard to direct this little army, so just ignore the non-ironed collar and poor hand placement. We're going with real life dressed in white. At least Gammi was here to help out where Mr Smith failed me. Gammi hoped in at the end. The light was gone before I could even pretend to get dressed. I'll be in a photo one of these days.
I love change. I love variety. I love mixing things up just because I can. It's helpful, but it's kind of a double edged sword. I'm terrible at consistency, even though Clifton Strengthfinder told me that was my #5 strength (I think they meant something closer to wanting things fair & equitable which isn't wrong). I not only move furniture in & out of my life, or make sure we don't eat the same thing too often... but I love that I can give my kids a flexible education. God knew this is something I would love & has allowed for it even when it comes with significant sacrifices (as many good things do). This has been a beautiful way to grow me over the last 4 years, and I definitely missed it, but I also started to doubt ever doing it again, which felt odd. I found myself questioning why I wanted to take the harder course. I had a little break with just E & M at home, but now B is back too, so I'm giving up some me time (I was never good at it any ...
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