I had just talked to Mr Smith a few nights before that Lexi would love to ride a horse and asked if he knew anyone that could give her a chance to ride. Little did we realize, one of his physicians had a neighbor with horses. We went to their summer party expecting goats and pigs, but got surprised with a horse ride! I was so excited she got her chance. She was doing her usual non-listening run around exploration in a new, over-stimulated environment, but when we asked if she wanted to follow us to ride a horse, she lit up. I could have seen her all talk until she sat on the horse by herself, but she did it! She was just soaking it all in. She had a chance to walk around on two horses and she was completely calm both times. She was so filthy from that night, even laid down in the dirt to be next to the family dog. But it was a good night for making dreams come true. Even the goats liked her.
I love change. I love variety. I love mixing things up just because I can. It's helpful, but it's kind of a double edged sword. I'm terrible at consistency, even though Clifton Strengthfinder told me that was my #5 strength (I think they meant something closer to wanting things fair & equitable which isn't wrong). I not only move furniture in & out of my life, or make sure we don't eat the same thing too often... but I love that I can give my kids a flexible education. God knew this is something I would love & has allowed for it even when it comes with significant sacrifices (as many good things do). This has been a beautiful way to grow me over the last 4 years, and I definitely missed it, but I also started to doubt ever doing it again, which felt odd. I found myself questioning why I wanted to take the harder course. I had a little break with just E & M at home, but now B is back too, so I'm giving up some me time (I was never good at it any ...
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