Mr & Mrs Smith

Now is the time where I keep waiting for THE DAY to come. That magical day of the second trimester where all of a sudden the uncomfortable pregnant-ness is gone and I actually want to crawl out of my bed and accomplish some things with this time we call life. It comes in small, tiny spurts. I feel like when I was working full-time with Lexi the nausea was a lot more debilitating. However, I do not remember the stomach discomforts, indigestion, and lack of pure will power that I have experienced this time around. I felt like the sharp round ligament pain (web-md) was coming around way too soon.  My body is all "hey I remember what this is all about; lets get the party started early!" so it had me worried in the beginning. I'm not sure at what pregnancy number you actually remember the facts regarding your previous pregnancy. Our minds suppress so much for obvious reasons. I wouldn't say it's painful, we'll save that for week 41. But pregnancy = uncomfortab...

*3 weeks ago* I'm starving and want to throw up at the thought of most food and at exactly the same minute it reaches my stomach. My mouth is all "YES. YES. YES" (but only for one specific thing that I must have NOW before I pass out) but my stomach is all "NO FREAKIN WAY AM I DIGESTING ANYTHING".  The catch is, I don't throw up, it just sits there tormenting me through the evening. And I'm still "starving" 30 minutes later. That's what part of early pregnancy feels like. It's kind of like torture, self-torture, because you wanted it. Well, I wanted it. I even begged for it. I've waited for it and kept thinking "6 weeks of sickness doesn't seem that long" in the hope that it does end after the first trimester. I'm sorry, 6 weeks seems like forever when you feel like this.  That's right folks, whiney pregnant lady is back!!! It's going to be an exciting second journey. {9 weeks pregnant}

*4 weeks ago* I'm staying quite for several reasons. 1. I'm scared every day I will lose the baby so getting my hopes too high makes me anxious. 2. I'm working still and trying to stay calm with how all the logistics are going to work out {I didn't expect to be in this position again}. 3. Sometimes it's fun to keep the secret - to just smile to yourself without having to share something so personal, which is all it is at this point.  I don't like being pregnant. I won't ever understand those who do. People can relate to being sick and getting to that low point where you think you have no idea what it's like to feel normal anymore - to lose hope in the idea that you will ever see what normal is again. I whine and I don't keep my feelings from Mr Smith. I'm selfish and want him to know exactly what I'm going through so that we can go through it together. I tell a few other close friends and family members just so he isn't my only sou...

We just wanted to let you know that if all goes well, we will have another Smith baby coming March 2016.  It'll be fun to announce more details as we get closer to 20 weeks. But for now, we're grateful and humbled by a little heartbeat at 12 weeks. Lexi will be the best.sister.ever.  I don't want the world to know yet. I probably won't make it a big deal until we know the gender. So I wanted this blog private until then. 

I do realize it is mid-August and my last posted photos were from July 4th. However, any month where I have 3 photo sessions, including a wedding, is the month my leisure activities take a back seat.  Lexi is still alive. Mr Smith and I are still alive. We are both still working thank goodness and life is relatively calm. We haven't gotten out to do much, just the occasional work party // playdate // water park visit // pioneer day at the park // mess making extravaganza.  Mostly we just play around the house. We are a little more involved in our ward now that I'm a counselor in Primary (ages 3-11) and Mr Smith is the ward financial clerk. I think he's also supposed to teach Elders Quorum every now and again. Lexi has gotten a little more aggressive in nursery than desired and just last week dashed under three pews during Sacrament in 3 seconds and ran down the hall; on her feisty day, I told Mr Smith to stay with her and see how she acts in her nursery class. He said ...