The Smiths Go to Work

I felt like we took a detour even if Mr Smith won't admit it, but we're back. We're back to work - and both of us! Who would have thought. It's almost a little too good to be true; I'm still a little superstitious. 

I wouldn't have made the same decisions Mr Smith did, but I know he made them with much thought and consideration; like he does with most things. So Mr Strategy had a different plan and it was HARD for me to hop on board. I mean physically, I'm not the one with the career anymore and I move when I have to move, but mentally and emotionally it's not easy trusting someone's decisions which inevitably effect your life. Mr Smith knew my focus was the money. But you know I never wanted to move to Hickory and you know I never intended on living in Provo after 2010. But we did and we are. And I just have to move on whether that involves me just throwing it out the window or pushing it toward some greater plan that has yet been revealed to me. 

I'm not saying Winston-Salem was my home. I'm not saying I was drawn to any other locations. I was definitely along for the ride and took the seat of the whiner when life wasn't...convenient. I like convenience. I was used to being spoiled by convenience. But that stopped the year Lexi was born.

I did see blessings of being in Hickory, mostly due to the influence of those in our ward. But like many situations in my past, I would wonder how on earth I ended up there, while at the same time having a hard time understanding what life would be like not knowing certain individuals and not experiencing certain things. So whether the Lord blesses us in the choices we make or whether He really does influence us down a certain path, I know we will be successful as long as we are trying to align our wills with His EVEN if that entails a lot of inconvenience.

One of the biggest differences between Mr Smith and I is my ability to be nostalgic and hold on to things and ideas. Mr Smith takes the sunk costs without regrets. And let me tell you, I let them torment me. I think it is best to recognize the consequences of our actions, but I know we have to move forward, move on and let things go, putting our faith in God and trusting the Holy Ghost who tells us what is right. But that latter part is easier said than done.

 

That's a long way of saying Mr Smith is managing some healthcare clinics in Utah County. And we will be in Provo for awhile longer. Mr Smith already got his car registered. I'm holding out a little longer out of principle. We plan to stay at his parents until more housing opportunities present themselves after graduation in April. We are inevitably grateful to Connie & Glenn for letting us extend our stay. Not only that, but Connie is watching Lexi for 4+ hours in the afternoon while I go to work. I am able to work Thursdays from home and hopefully I can eventually do most of my hours from home. I still enjoy working and it is a great opportunity for us to pay off grad loans. 

We are very appreciative of all you who kept us in your prayers, not that I'm saying you should take us out (one trial down, 50+ to go), but I know this is an answer to many prayers. And for the record, it feels fantastic to have overcome that hurtle. We wanted this move to work out. I'm not sure what UT has in store for us, but it looks like we're sticking our heels in and making a life here. I am grateful to know I have a lot of old friends in the area still. I'll put down my pride and learn to love it, but baby steps.

The second step is getting my king bed back. Which I can only owe to my parents. I guess parents are good people. We should be nice to them.