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I forgot that she has started repeating that phrase "Night night" - so much joy comes when your children begin to learn and understand their world.

Although it can be absolutely petrifying to think about what that world may be next year or 10 years down the road.

But let's just work on today. 

Today still includes 2 naps. 5 diapers. 5 nursing feeds. many cheerios & grapes. lots of whining and laughing. a few tears. 8 story times. hours of playtime. 1 bath time. 1,000 kisses.

and always a silent cheer when daddy pulls into the drive way.

My life is not picture perfect. I'm not sure I would have chosen every aspect of my life if I had written it down 5 years ago. But, it's still pretty great. 

The older I get, the more I realize I just need to change my picture of perfect. Riding expectations doesn't mean I'm shooting for the ground hoping it'll bounce up to the stars. It means, today is enough. And tomorrow will be too. Whatever I have temporally, or whoever I am spiritually doesn't have an end. I can always want more, and knowledge and wisdom is a continuous process. Perfection means appreciating what I have and trying to be a better person each day. I don't need something else to make me happy. I don't need someone else to make me happy. I don't need to be perfect, to be happy. It means, being happy today because today is perfect. It means Come Unto Christ because only through Him can we know joy and be perfected.

We wouldn't know happiness if it wasn't for Christ. We wouldn't know perfection if it wasn't for Christ.
He is the reason for the good mornings and the nighty nights.

He is perfect. He should be our picture.


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