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Filling Time

People often ask me what I do to fill my time. I guess they are hoping I am productive and that has been my goal for awhile, to feel like a productive, serving member of society. So out of the 15 hours during the day that I'm awake, 13 of them is making sure Lexi is growing into the person God wants her to be.  The other 2 hours are from 8-10PM which is lover time (which usually consists of last minute chores or dessert & Netflix) Of the 13 hours, 5 of them are nap times. Sometimes if Lexi keeps me up at night, I take the morning nap with her (1.5ish hours). The other nap hours I try to edit photos, blog, clean, shower, eat, personal projects, etc... When she is awake, I think that gives us 8 hours, we play, take a stroll, cook food, run to the grocery store or hobby lobby or walmart or target/babiesrus because they are next door & that's awesome when you have children. It's not easy getting in & out of the car multiple times + nap time always comes quicker than you think = cranky shopper! Every now and then we go visit friends, but for the most part we stay home because it's easier. Of the 9 hours at night, so far I'm still waking up at an average of 1.5 times to put in a pacifier & I end up feeding once in the wee morning, last night was 6 AM, but then she's pretty consistent about wanting to eat at 7AM too. I know I need to do the ear plugs again to ignore the 1.5 pacifier input request, but it's hard to commit. At least she goes at least 8 hours before she eats? progress? that was our first goal.

So that's our life.

Lexi is getting a couple dry spots on her face but lotion still worries me. Cetaphil should be ok for babies? I'm trying to encourage the cradle cap to go away but it still freaks me out. And she still has a clogged tear duct. Those are her imperfections. She's pretty awesome & is just laying in bed talking. I need to go get her now while she's happy. My big 4.5 month girl in her 9 month sleepers. At least there is room to grow. I found her on her stomach in her crib two nights ago, so that's the first time we've seen her "roll over". It's fun seeing her evolve into a little person. She is understanding more about the world around her & slowly gaining control over her body. 

Quote of yesterday:

Mr Smith: "So it's probably time you start working out again"
Me: underwear thrown in his face
Mr Smith: "I mean as in muscle tone"
Me: underwear in face again

My goal is to add 5 lbs back in muscle, but goodness Mr Smith wants to get punched in the face. 

We enjoyed our 4 day trip to Nana's house. It was sad to see Nana suffering from horrible headaches, but Lexi did bring some sunshine to Looper Rd. We are praying things go well Monday with her radiation & are hoping that she can spend the rest of her days pain free & happy. She is an amazing mother & grandmother and I have always looked up to her my whole life.










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