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Alright, her nap extended into another hour & I finished one of my photo shoot edits, so I can pause for a second to blog about the Smith life. Well you know, one of them. 

Actually I don't feel like blogging our FL vacation yet or talking about life here in Hickory. My cousin, Shannon, sent me this post from another blogger who she said wrote like me. It was a birth story and since I'm a sucker for honest birth stories, I had to read. At first, it begins like a typical over achieving birth story with gift bags for the visitors (not even close to what was on my mind), but the raw emotion that seeps in later will catch your heart. Having a baby is like a waterfall of emotions. It takes a strong person not to collapse in utter insanity. 

So for now, just read this post. It's long & I still read it.
I cried with her. Even though I can't fully understand, I appreciate her story.

After reading it and then going to bed, 
I had all these inspired words to blog.
Now I remember nothing except that I dreamed I was pregnant.
Yeah = nightmare (when you have a 2.5 month old).

I love love love being home with Alexis.
I have had really hard days that tried my patience
and even my love. And I have an "easy" baby.
Newborns are cute, but it's a big shift with the first-born
& I don't know how the energy level does anything but wane from here on out.
However, with all the tired aches & stress & attachment issues
comes the best gift you could ever receive in this life. 

Adults need babies. I firmly believe it is the
child-like (not child-ish) behavior that we must learn from.
They teach us patience, love & selflessness
I know they bring us closer to Christ.
When I struggle, it's because I am fallen to the flesh.
Alexis teaches me so much & I hope I can
teach, guide & provide for her to help her become her best.
If only I could protect her from all evil.
But we will help her become strong
mentally, physically & spiritually

She deserves everything we could possible offer her.
She is our little person. And gosh darn it, 
a stinkin cute one!



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