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What Is Normal?

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we started a new phase. it's called hold me and ill sleep longer than 10 minutes. 
it's also called farting is sooo dramatic.

you never thought you'd love the burping & farting sounds of a cute little girl. but holy crap drama if you have to wait for it. it's awesome when she's nursing at the time and doesn't let go. hello grumpy bronco. i think it's normal.

that's a fun game to play. "what's normal"

wearing yesterday's clothes with spit up. you havent eaten breakfast, but you've nursed twice already. dang it i forgot about the pumped milk still sitting in the bedroom. baby's head in armpit. toes are the new fingers. calls go to voicemail. you are excited to get 3 hours of sleep in a row. you hear every sound when they sleep trying to determine how much longer you have. you've also decided that the bassinet can go in the hallway instead of right next to you. turns out you can still hear them when you need to. im that kind of mom.

sorry i dont respond quickly. im trying to keep a baby alive. and im not super efficient at it yet.


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  1. Scott and Lori Smith09 May, 2013

    ahh yes. the first few weeks of being a new mom. I'm always thinking about you and that sweet girl.

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  2. Mary Jones16 May, 2013

    You look great Kayla, you dontlook like you just had a baby!!! And she is adorable!

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