So I got the membranes stripped. It's kinda just like a more intense cervix check. A grueling 45 seconds for sure, but we women get desperate. And we'll take anything that could encourage things along. She said if I were to get induced, I wouldn't need the pill that thins you out. She thinks I have a good chance of my water breaking as I am 90% effaced. But I also don't want to depend on petocin to get the ball rolling. You're moving so much, just move out! Come on contractions . . . any minute now. I have a Thursday morning appointment for the NST test, which if anything I'll take seeing you in black & white BUT COLOR WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER.
I love change. I love variety. I love mixing things up just because I can. It's helpful, but it's kind of a double edged sword. I'm terrible at consistency, even though Clifton Strengthfinder told me that was my #5 strength (I think they meant something closer to wanting things fair & equitable which isn't wrong). I not only move furniture in & out of my life, or make sure we don't eat the same thing too often... but I love that I can give my kids a flexible education. God knew this is something I would love & has allowed for it even when it comes with significant sacrifices (as many good things do). This has been a beautiful way to grow me over the last 4 years, and I definitely missed it, but I also started to doubt ever doing it again, which felt odd. I found myself questioning why I wanted to take the harder course. I had a little break with just E & M at home, but now B is back too, so I'm giving up some me time (I was never good at it any ...
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