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Getting Checked

Not the most comfortable thing in the world, to say the least.
80% effaced (thinned), 3 cm dilated
& I was definitely violated. 

But all in all, I will take my false hope & run with it. At least it's progressing & that feels somewhat satisfying. She says she's typically pretty conservative as well. Week 40 is right around the corner.

doc/midwife: "I could stick 2 fingers"
Me: "Oh wow"
Me to myself: "it felt like your entire freakin fist"

I opted out of the "do you want me to strip your membranes" procedure
which she said would put me into labor within 48 hours.

My response "sounds like it hurts"
Midwife "oh it does"
My response "we'll wait & see; pass for now"

Because really, it's all a game of "wait & see"

Me: so I could go into labor tomorrow or a week from now
the doc/midwife: "correct, or any minute" 
Me: great.

I'm not sure I liked the idea of 48 hours. Again, I struggle with making things real. I just want her to naturally want to come out this weekend, that's all. I've realized I am having contractions, just no real pain associated with the tightening sensations. Let's see how well I sleep tonight . . .

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  1. Good luck, Kayla! She's coming!

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  2. Um girl, that baby is coming! I remember going to my appt (same results as you - 3 cm, 80% effaced). Hudson was born two days later! You don't have much longer!!! So excited for you!

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