Pregnancy - Half Way There!

I found where you can turn your blog into a book: blurb.com

So now I don't feel super horrible for not writing down my first year of marriage in a journal.

Ya know, I only moved to a new place, got a new job, and got pregnant.

happens-all-the-time.

And I did write about some of my feelings on those significant days . . .

Feelings definitely evolve over time, so I guess it's important to understand your emotional state at that time, not hindsight 20/20. Mr Smith would rather not.

Pregnancy update... dun dun dun

because YOU care.

I began feeling better around oh let's say week 18

would have been earlier if not for the sinus infection.

So at week 21 I feel as good as normal can get these days.

Did I say I felt her noticeable movements in week 18 as well?

Those have only gotten stronger obviously.

She stops right when her dad wants to feel her, bwahah

We still love knowing she's alive.

It also still freaks me out to know I have something alive in me.

My coworkers joke about my hourly snacks.

I'm beginning to wonder if pregnancy really is an excuse.

But let's just say, my lunch is bigger than Mr Smith's.

It's still my #1 stressful hate/love relationship.

My skin is still back and forth, but no longer dry!

My boobs ache 24/7 and keep me up at night.

But alas because I prayed for boobs once or twice as a teenager,

I think my vanity cursed me. Although pushups are no longer needed.

I still haven't gotten my love for cooking back.

I detest the smell of the fridge and cupboard.
cereal & oranges are currently my favorites.

My stomach is growing, I think in a decent shape.

and still not always that noticeable until after lunch.

Sometimes the top of it aches.

I've long lost any idea where my abs are.

I actually don't wake up to pee anymore, so that's nice.

I'll take that while I can.

And that's all I can think of at the moment.

I'm grateful for every day that my baby is healthy.

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