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Today was Not a good day

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It was not only not good, but it was pretty bad. It almost doesn't seem real because why? I think everything should come naturally (where I don't have to challenge myself?) and in a perfect world, I'm never the fool. We don't live in a perfect world. And it's not just me and my perfectionist expectations, I mean I'm probably taking the "not good" and turning it into a "my life is coming to a end" but . . . I've been brought down. I am not invincible and if I can't be invincible, then I want to be invisible, but I'm not that either. 

I know that this applies to the most important aspect of my life too, my spiritual state. And how easily I like to think I'm invincible there too. It's where I will start though. Back to the basics, because apparently I can't handle the complex at the moment. I need to calm my mind. And maybe General Conference in a week+ is exactly what I need. 

And a really long extended weekend with the biggest joy of my life {Mr Smith}. 
Tonight, for dinner, I had Life. like the cereal. 
but it was symbolic too. 


I just can't always take the first out, but it's always my first instinct. 
If something hurts, I want to drop it like it's hot.
Not you, dear . . . but everything else.
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