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It's all the same, yet different at the same time. Different in the good ways. Normally I don't like the idea of going back in time, but maybe I would repeat that day, our wedding day. Maybe I would change/avoid a few things. But I really just want to enjoy it differently - enjoy it more - remember more. It all happens so fast. They tell you that, but you don't understand it until you're in the car and it's all packed away. My pictures came to life though, and I'm hoping pictures are captured again. It was beautiful and totally me. I don't know how to tell brides to avoid stress and to enjoy the explanations and justifications, but I wish I could. The best part is just enjoying the people. So much happens in one day though. So much happens. And now, to be honest, the best part is unpacking and being at home with him, talking about average things, doing average things, laughing about average things, bickering about nothingness. I love it. I love my life. I am so blessed.


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