It's all the same, yet different at the same time. Different in the good ways. Normally I don't like the idea of going back in time, but maybe I would repeat that day, our wedding day. Maybe I would change/avoid a few things. But I really just want to enjoy it differently - enjoy it more - remember more. It all happens so fast. They tell you that, but you don't understand it until you're in the car and it's all packed away. My pictures came to life though, and I'm hoping pictures are captured again. It was beautiful and totally me. I don't know how to tell brides to avoid stress and to enjoy the explanations and justifications, but I wish I could. The best part is just enjoying the people. So much happens in one day though. So much happens. And now, to be honest, the best part is unpacking and being at home with him, talking about average things, doing average things, laughing about average things, bickering about nothingness. I love it. I love my life. I am so blessed.
I love change. I love variety. I love mixing things up just because I can. It's helpful, but it's kind of a double edged sword. I'm terrible at consistency, even though Clifton Strengthfinder told me that was my #5 strength (I think they meant something closer to wanting things fair & equitable which isn't wrong). I not only move furniture in & out of my life, or make sure we don't eat the same thing too often... but I love that I can give my kids a flexible education. God knew this is something I would love & has allowed for it even when it comes with significant sacrifices (as many good things do). This has been a beautiful way to grow me over the last 4 years, and I definitely missed it, but I also started to doubt ever doing it again, which felt odd. I found myself questioning why I wanted to take the harder course. I had a little break with just E & M at home, but now B is back too, so I'm giving up some me time (I was never good at it any ...
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