Mixing Life and Music

So on my FL road trip, I ran into a few mix CDs. And shamefully, but really there is no shame, I rekindled a little bit of my youthfulness. You see, dancing and daydreams were two favorite things of mine. Not coordinated dancing, just dance parties, roommate dance offs and awesome road trip performances. And my mix CDs tell a story. Mostly embarrassing stories full of regrets, but at the same time, it's a past I cherish. Either way, I ended up here and I can't complain about that. However, a lot of the dance songs are censored and not added here, but many others still tell a tale of well, drama.

And now I'm old and the drama consists of forgotten clothes in the washing machine. But let's go back a little.

It starts with a little bit of this:

Hansen "MMMbop"

that happened

Chris Brown "Say Goodbye"

A few years of loving and being loved but never at the same time

Justin Bieber "Baby"

and just enjoying the dance parties

Baby Bash "Cyclone"

A few regrets

One Republic "Secrets"

Bitterness

Jaron "Pray for You"

ridiculously jaded

"The Script" Breakeven

Colbie Cailatt "I Won't"

Jesse McCartney "How Do You Sleep?"

miss independent

Kelly Clarkson "Stronger"

A turn of events

Soulja Boy "Kiss Me Thru the Phone"

Ingrid Michaelson "Soldier"

Rascal Flatts "Waiting all My Life"

And a happily ever after

Shania Twain "From This Moment On"

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